My Deepest and Darkest Fear

Like every other individual on this planet, I have my fair share of fears and nightmares. And, I'm going to take this opportunity to talk about one of my major nightmares! This is one I have had for a while now. But, to be very frank, the damn thing became very very strong, or should I say prominent, only after I came to Bangalore!

Ok ... For those who are baffled, let me break the code. I am talking about my "Fear Of Rejection By The Fairer Sex". I hope that sets your mind to rest!

When I was in college, I was a lot more bolder that I am now. If you ask me now, I'd say that was because I had nothing to loose and also because I was in lot better shape back then. Right now, thanks to having an "image" to loose at work/amongst my friends/colleague circle, and on top of that, taking into account all those beer nights and hogging sessions, I weigh a good 115 kilos, compared to the 90 odd kilo frame I sported back during my college days - I guess my fears of rejected have more than just doubled.

Add to this that I am Bangalore - where all the babes are hot and, except for a few guys - like me, all the guys are well groomed and good looking, and more importantly - FIT, my chances of scoring with the babes are decreased to a factor of one in a zillion!

I miss my days in Chennai, when even though I sported a similar frame, I used to be able to hit on the babes (although I must confess that the babes back there looked like they were left in the oven waaaaaaaaaaaay too longer than needed!!!)


Anyways, I know and accept that I bought this situation upon myself, and I have no one else to blame. So, I guess the only practical way out of this stupid situation - is to enroll at the gym, and more importantly - BE REGULAR TO THE GYM!!!


Wish me luck folks!!!